During Get Real‘s episode on the upsides and downsides of idol fame, Ladies’ Code‘s Ashley Choi opened up about the negativity directed at her as an idol, sharing why she would refuse to speak Korean during group interviews.

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Thinking back to the first interviews she did as an idol, Ashley pointed out how her Korean skills as a Korean American created a bit of a challenge. She said, “After being raised in New York, I knew how to speak Korean but difficult words I did not know.

Because she’s only human, Ashley had a few mishaps that made it known to others. She added, “So sometimes I would make mistakes, or my pronunciation would be kind of…you can tell I’m a Korean American.

She was attacked for those mistakes so often that she didn’t even want to be interviewed. Ashley said, “And there would be people saying something about that too. And that made me just not want to do interviews at all.

Ashley received help from her group: “I actually told my members, ‘When we have to talk in Korean, you guys do all of the talking. I’ll just be in the back not talking.’

Though she was the leader, who would traditionally take the lead, Ashley admitted she was “just scared.

Since idols are often targeted for a variety of things, it’s unfortunate that Ashley feared the simple act of speaking just because she made a few mistakes.

After all, mistakes are necessary to learn and improve. Listen to Ashley open up about why she was so scared to speak Korean during interviews.