On a recent broadcast of Channel A’s Heard It Through the Grapevine, Park Yoochun made his first TV appearance since the declaration of his retirement and spoke up about how he’s been doing since his scandal.

Park Yoochun shared that he’s been living a low-key life at home.

I spend most of my time at home. I spend time with my family, and when I feel stressed, I go hiking.

– Yoochun

Park Yoochun began by apologizing to the public.

I wanted to apologize to the public. I want to ask for their forgiveness. But even that required courage. I’ve been spending time just worrying about it and failing to gather up the courage.

– Yoochun

He then opened up about the countless controversies that he’s been faced with over the years.

Park Yoochun explained what led him to declare his retirement just 1 year before in a press conference.

If I think back to the press conference, announcing my retirement was an extreme decision. I was so out of my mind that I don’t know what led me to make that decision and say it out loud.

– Yoochun

He continued,

I think I was really scared. I was under criticism for past incidents and as a result of the criticism, I didn’t think about my future and abandoned myself. The thought of that happening again prevented me from being able to make a different decision. I admit that it was my mistake. I often think I should’ve just told the truth back then. That’s what I regret the most.

– Yoochun

Park Yoochun also spoke up about the controversies surrounding his social media activity, paid fan club, and the release of a pictorial shortly after his retirement.

He explained that he did it for his fans.

I received a lot of love from them since my debut so I thought that was how I could repay them. I thought that was the respectful thing to do for those who were curious about how I was doing.

– Yoochun

But he understands why so many are against his return to the entertainment industry.

It’s a given that people are against it. And that’s something I have to bear. I don’t know how long it’ll take before I can change the public’s mind. It might never happen. It’d be shameless to expect their forgiveness.

– Yoochun

As he shed tears, Yoochun bowed his head and sent out a sincere apology to the public.

I’m really sorry. All I can do is apologize. I also made this promise to myself. I will not repeat the same mistake again. I promise. I’ll live diligently.

– Yoochun

Last year, Park Yoochun was punished by the law for the injection of Philophon.

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Park Yoochun held a press conference to deny the accusation of his ex-girlfriend that he used the drug, but he later tested positive in a drug test, shocking many fans around the globe.

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Check out the full interview clip below: